2008: the year of euro2008, and im glad that another of the teams which i support won again (the previous time was italy winning the world cup in 2006)!! LOL, but i guess this wasnt even important in what i should be remembering from 2008…
i was browsing through my old entries, and i notice that most of the entries i wrote varies in mood, though most are in angry mode. but i guess its just a way of venting frustrations (if you do notice my blog title). i think i did write this before, people have different ways of doing so, and this is my own style, and i dun nag my frustrations to my friends. another thing i realised is that i think im learning how to control my emotions better now. i dun lose focus in my job anymore whenever i feel down. but then again, somehow i feel im losing all my emotions. its just something like numbness. when u slap urself everyday, sometimes u just dun feel the pain anymore when u keep doing so. (this applies to my alarm clock too! when the alarm rings everyday at 7am, slowly u just wont think that its noisy anymore. LOL). i guess i cant open my heart easily now…
2008 was the year of growth and improvement for me. the job gave me opportunities to learn and to prove my worth through crazy late nights working during the last peak period; and there it came, experience and knowledge. i guess the sole purpose for us to work in this line is for knowledge and not for the money, and i guess the economic gloom in 2008 made it worst. we saw again the practical nature of people in this world, where people are sacrifice for the sake of clashes of interests. owners of the company places pressure on the management to control expenses, and why do they want to do that? money. and i guess i should stop complaining about something which none of us in the whole wide world can change, and this topic is a forever on-going problem for ALL of us (just admit it, take away money in your life, what are you left with? dun tell me its your soul!)
inter-personal relationships in 2008 revolve mainly in my office, and i guess i should expand my social circle. i guess things get pretty ugly whenever conflicts occur within the office and these are those times which i feel the office is still not big enough to contain people whom i dun wish to see. be less close with ur colleagues = be less sad when u leave (but i guess it cant apply to me now, cos im just too frenly in office… wahahahhaa)
sometimes, i guess people think im abit too stucked up (i dunno who thinks so, but its just a general feel), maybe due to some negative image which i portrayed in office (i just cant smile all the time la, dey. u think i actor issit!). sorry lor, my fault.. haha. well, i cant be suddenly start smiling at everyone in office rite? and i cant be start talking to everyone all day long leh. i got things to do de lor. im not as free as you think. LOL.
one of my colleagues asked me this suddenly in office, “yd, you are a nice guy. but why aren’t you attached?” LOL, how you want me to answer this? “cos girls think that im not nice?”, “girls think that im just a nice guy, with nothing else?” or “girls dun like nice guys at all?”. sorry to say, i dont fish in office. if you think im doing so, you are so totally wrong…
goodbye to 2008 and if i offended anyone in the last year, too bad then. i dun need to prove what i am to you. LOL…
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and yeah, so this is it! my list of resolutions for the year (not in any order of importance, and im lazy to arrange in alphabetical order):
- spend more time with family
- survive in current job (specifically, the peak period)
- find a better job (after surviving, haha)
- save $300 more per month (very unlikely though, haha)
- spend less (so as to fulfill the previous reso)
- be more positive in all areas
- start training for ippt (LOL)
- pick up a new sport (LOL x 2)
- lose a bit of my fats (LOL x 3)
- fulfill at least 50% of all the resolutions for 2009 (crap!)
let’s see how many of these can i achieve by 2009. haha
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