Monthly Archives: October 2006

a boy and a girl

this is an IQ question…

A two-child family has at least one boy.

What is the probability that the family has a girl?

answers below

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its 2/3

first u need to establish the sample size… let B = boy and G = girl

for a family with at least a boy u get all these possibilties

[B,G]  [G,B]  [B,B]
so for there to be a girl, chances are 2 out of 3… dun get it?

i think i…

i think i should complain less… and do more…. lol…

“its up to us to fulfil or waste our lives away.”

when things arent seem to be as well as it should have been, we should try and make things happen. lol, suddenly remembered my unit’s Commanding Officer’s favourite quote for our unit:

‘Dare to Dream and Dare to make our Dreams Come True!”

how motivating it was for a bunch of NSFs then. we didnt pay too much attention to it then. but somehow, life should have been lived this way. people shoudl live for their dreams. be it to be high-flying careers, owning cool cars, living in huge houses, or simply to indulge in family lives. we ought to be having those thoughts. (bah… why am i sounding like a counsellor? zzz… )
in the meantime, i shall try to get my report done.. somehow…

the meaning behind my nick

hmm… i knew this word when i first heard this jap band called ‘love psychedelico’. found this word to be quite cool. so i decided to use it for the first time when i played CS once with my NS frens. and went on to use it for almost every online game.

until recently then i knew the exact meaning of my nick.. haha..

this is the wiki entry for the word, ‘psychedelic’

The word psychedelic is a neologism coined from the Greek words for “mind,” ψυχή (psyche), and “manifest,” δήλος (delos).

A psychedelic experience is characterized by the perception of aspects of one’s mind previously unknown, or by the creative exuberance of the mind liberated from its ordinary fetters. Psychedelic states are one of the stations on the spectrum of experiences elicited by sensory deprivation as well as by psychedelic substances. On that same spectrum will be found hallucinations, changes of perception, synesthesia, altered states of awareness, mystical states, and occasionally states resembling psychosis.

The term was first coined as a noun in 1956 by psychiatrist Humphry Osmond, as an alternative descriptor for hallucinogenic drugs in the context of psychedelic psychotherapy. The term featured in a now-famous exchange with Aldous Huxley, in which the little-used term phanerothyme (derived from roots relating to “spirit” or “soul”) was suggested:

To make this trivial world sublime,
take half a gram of phanerothyme.

Osmond responded:

To fathom Hell or soar angelic,
just take a pinch of psychedelic.

Timothy Leary, who was largely responsible for the popularization of the term “psychedelic”, was a well known proponent of their use, as was Aldous Huxley. The word psychedelic should actually be spelled psychodelic, in accordance with proper Greek, as Huxley had pointed out to Osmund upon the term’s conception. However, Leary thought that psychedelic sounded better and deliberately disregarded the proper spelling and pronunciation. The use of psychedelic drugs became widespread in the mid-1960s. The fashion for psychedelic drugs gave its name to the visual style of psychedelia, to a style of electronic dance music commonly known as psytrance and to a rock music style that became known as psychedelic rock.

The impact of psychedelic drugs on western culture in the 1960s led to semantic drift in the use of the word “psychedelic”, and it is now frequently applied to describe any brightly patterned or coloured object. In objection to this new meaning, and to the pejorative meanings of other synonyms such as “hallucinogen” and “psychotomimetic”, the term “entheogen” was proposed and is seeing increasing use. However, many consider the term “entheogen” best reserved for religious and spiritual usage, such as certain Native American churches do with the peyote sacrament, and “psychedelic” left to describe those who are using these drugs recreationally.

At the same time as psychedelic drugs were being used by the counterculture of the 1960s, they were also being used in experiments by governments, who saw them and sensory deprivation (apparently mistakenly) as useful agents for mind control; see MKULTRA for the CIA involvement in the use of psychedelic drugs.

studying for the sake of it

one of my friends mention this phrase to me, which got me thinking, again.

‘studying for the sake of it’

to most of us, this phrase might mean to go thru motion, to go thru practices blindly, to study becos we are to study.

in actual fact, ‘studying for the sake of it’ means the contrary. we study becos we want to study. everything we have to do has a purpose and allows us to learn. we study becos we have a chance to study.

BUT, why isnt this happening around us? why are we forced to a stage whereby we complain when we can have a chance to study? why are we being thrown tons of work and are told that this is the way to survive in SG? do we even understand what is called studying or learning? is this the only way out?

becoming a deviant

after surfing thru this website DeviantART , i realised why pple would spend thousands of dollars on photography-taking. how i wish i had an SLR too…

this website has more than 10,000 members and most of these ‘deviants’ have really strong artistic senses. they are ordinary pple around us with contrasting ideas towards life and often, we are able to see their world through their art pieces. really feel like travelling around the world someday.

every picture tells a story. many of these wonderful idealogies about life, nature, beliefs, architecture, social ethics, cultures, etc are being captured and submitted everyday by deviants all over the world. joy, depression, hope, anger, uncertainty, struggles. every picture captures a different mood and evokes different feelings and memories. i often identify myself in the moods they had portrayed.

Floating up to the sky

owned

during my project meeting just now, one of my group mates said this phrase, which stunned me for quite a while:

“None of us are virgins, because we are all screwed by life.”

quote of the year, definitely.

reflecting…

i, in the past, was anti social. becos i felt that being alone myself is enough and to me, the pple around me were just acquaintances. they wont be there to help you when u have problems.

during sch days, the pple in my clique changed every 1-2 years, becos i was in a totally different class every 1-2 years . when i finished PSLE and went to secondary sch, it changes again. i do the same things with every clique i was in. study, eat, play. cos we didnt really bothered to know each other deeper.

i dun go out often with frens, not even to arcade. throughout those days, i was either in sch or i cooped myself at home. i was quite quiet then becos i dun like to talk alot also. thats my nature and maybe that explains why i dun like to socialise.

this remains till i entered the army. and from this point onwards, i met many many types of people from all walks of life. i’ve interacted with ex-convicts, ex-drug abusers, pple with low education, pple with high education, pple who cant speak a proper sentence in mandarin, pple who cant speak a proper sentence in english, pple of other races, pple from other religions, pple who stereotype, etc. i also first tasted the bitterness of loneliness, something which i never experienced before enlistment. i remembered during BMT, i didnt know why, but i felt the need to call someone up to talk. so i took out my phone and i scrolled thru my phoneboo. besides my family members, there was no one i could call. i was stumped for quite long and i asked myself, ‘how have u lived your life for the past 18 yrs? why issit that u have no frens to call to when u need pple to talk to?’

my perception towards other pple changed drastically then. after NS, i chose to stay in hall, away from home again, becos i didnt want to waste another 3 yrs of my life doing nth else but study.

living away from home for the past 4-5 yrs made me realised the importance of frens, even acquaintances. these are the only pple u can depend on when u are alone outside the ocmfort of home. also becos my family cannot be always there for me. although now, i do not have very close frens whom i can pour my heart to, at least it is easier to find company when u need it.

escapism

i think im suffering from this…

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extracted from Wikipedia

Escapism is mental diversion by means of entertainment or recreation, as an “escape” from the perceived unpleasant aspects of daily reality.

Escapism has occurred constantly throughout time. Some believe that this diversion is more inherent in today’s urban, technological existence because it de-facto removes people from their biologically normal natures. Entire industries have sprung up to foster a growing tendency of people to remove themselves from the rigors of daily life. Principal amongst these are fiction literature, sports, films, television, roleplaying games, pornography, recreational drugs, the internet and computer games. Many activities that are normal parts of a healthy existence (e.g., eating, exercise, sexual activity) can also become avenues of escapism when taken to extreme.

In the context of being taken to an extreme, the word ‘escapism’ carries a negative connotation, suggesting that escapists are unhappy souls, with an inability or unwillingness to connect meaningfully with the world.

Some social critics warn about attempts by the powers that control society to provide means of escapism instead of actually bettering the condition of the people. In one of the interpretations of the famous quote by Karl Marx “Religion is the opium of the people”, religion (particularly religions that promise an afterlife) is presented as escapism with which believers distract themselves. Others may argue that means of escapism are provided by the market to those who desire a form of “escape.” Two fictional escapist societies are the Eloi of The Time Machine and the one in Fahrenheit 451, focused in visual entertainment.

However, there are some who challenge the idea that escapism is fundamentally and exclusively negative. For instance, J.R.R. Tolkien, responding to the Anglo-Saxon academic debate on escapism in the 1930’s, wrote in his essay “On Fairy-Stories” that escapism had an element of emancipation in its attempt to figure a different reality. His friend C. S. Lewis was also fond of remarking that the usual enemies of escapism were jailers.

A German social philosopher Ernst Bloch wrote that utopias and images of fulfillment, however regressive they might be, also included an impetus for a radical social change. According to Bloch, social justice could not be realized without seeing things fundamentally differently. Something that is mere ‘daydreaming’ or ‘escapism’ from the viewpoint of a technological-rational society might be a seed for a new and more humane social order, it can be seen as an “immature, but honest substitute for revolution”.

talkingcock in parliament – ruby pan

one of my favourite videos from talkingcock in parliament

im getting lame…

had this conversation sometime ago… i was having lunch in hall canteen with vinh and 5-6 other pple…

some guy: ‘eh vinh, why u nv finish all the rice on ur plate?’

vinh: ‘cos im not lao shu(mouse)’

and then there was silence…

NOT ONE of the other 5-6 pple sitting on our table understood his joke…

except me…

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WTF!

am i smart or simply lame?

gimme money, so i can die…

ever since i turned 21, i’ve been wondering if getting a high-paid job is my ultimate aim in life? or should i strive for something more worthwhile than just money? what if i cant survive? what if i succumb to the tempation of money (again)?

nb… why cant i remember who the hell is the first person to tell me ‘money is everything’. seriously, is money the only thing in life? or in singapore only? i wonder what inspired me to study hard during secondary sch and jc, so i can get a degree, which supposedly can guarantee me a good future/career/(life)?

some say u cant survive in singapore without money. true enough, u really cant survive. without money, u cant even fulfill ur basic needs of life: food, water, shelter, (lucky no need pay for air). worse still, medicine if u are sick. even worse, if u need treatment for a serious injury/illness. seriously, how much will u need? i’ve began to see for myself more evidence to the saying, ‘it is better to just die in singapore than to fall sick here’. but then again, even dying needs money. u have to pay for ur funeral, ur cremation, ur burial. is this the way of life as it should be?

i dunno when exactly did my perception of money start to change, and i dunno when i can put down the burden of earning. seriously it is not practical. if one day i suddenly tell myself to stop working for money and live for myself, i think my parents will be very very disappointed with me. even if they arent, i will curse myself someday in the future because i didnt give them the life i’ve promised before. do i really come out with only impractical ideas? is a moneyless life really out of this world?

life is fucked up.

boring life

things i have been doing recently:

  • eat, sleep, slack in hall (thats standard)
  • dota
  • owning pple in dota
  • feeding pple in dota
  • go lecture/tutorial
  • meeting tutorial mates for presentations/assignments/projects
  • trying to catch up with my readings
  • msn-ing the same few pple
  • eat, sleep, slack at home (again??)
  • accompanying parents at home
  • reading blogs
  • started to read on controversial topics
  • surfing deviantart.com for interesting and inspiring pictures/photos
  • widening my mindset
  • downloading/listening to mp3s
  • downloading/watching dramas
  • craptalk with nike, vinh, noel, etc
  • listening to pple’s complains/rants/whatever
  • listening to my desires
  • worrying abt my future
  • worrying abt my money
  • worrying abt everything
  • worrying abt myself
  • insonmia
  • headaches
  • thinking what to do in the future
  • thinking what can i do
  • thinking where should/(can) i go
  • setting goals
  • motivating others
  • motivating myself (am i doing so?)
  • motivating myself to work towards my goal
  • motivating myself to get the best out of my boring life

classic line!

” 曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前,我没有珍惜,

等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及。

人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。

如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会,

我会对那个女孩子说三个字:我爱你。

如果非要在这份爱上加个期限,我希望是……

一万年!”

dunno whether anyone remember these lines? lol..